breakfast
read until troy
lunch
debussy
gym
dinner

normally, i would put a picture of an actor or model walking on the streets. but i know of this website for twilight fans, and thats where i found this picture. i see this and am incredibly jealous of kristen. now i know that she has lots of makeup on, and that the person who took this had perfect light and what not. but it doesn't stop me from wishing i looked like that. i can't look at facebook because it reminds me of how lonely i am. i can't look at these people because it reminds me of how pretty i am not. so i sit here, listening to a fine frenzy's haunting but beautiful lyrics. i wish i didn't feel this way, but honestly besides being more beautiful and thin. there is nothing i would like to change. i'm gonna go ponder this and try not to burst into sobs. for those reading and sympathizing, i thank you.

breakfast (3)
debussy
bryant park
lunch (?)
MET museum
dinner (?)
art response

congratulations for me, i'm actually making some progress on my summer homework. so today my mom and i joined weight watchers, i figured its a healthy way to lose some weight. so by next wednesday, i should have some results. so any numbers next to meals on my list is points. i've practically forgotten about my friend situation. i am just living my life, and i know that school will be better. tomorrow i'm going to new york. i have to go to a museum and write about a piece of art. i've never been to the MET, so there. L and i are going to see bandslam this friday, just for the new moon trailer & for something to do. i absolutely love the VS angels, i know all of the big ones. my favorite is miranda (pictured above) but i'm in love with the name doutzen (another angel). well its late and i have to get up at 6h45 tomorrow so. sleeps for me.

breakfast
mythology part one
lunch
julie & julia
party
dinner

i was completely shocked today to find out that paramore is coming out with a new cd. i'm thrilled! i ended up not going to musikfest after all, how depressing. tomorrow i'm seeing julie & julia with my family. i am a huge fan of meryl streep. i added another college to my list today, right now i have about five schools. college is a big deal to me. i am really going to give these next few months a lot of work to get into my number one school. ya know i really want a pair of equestrian boots, urban outfitters used to have this one fabulous pair but now there gone. i demand that this year be my real  fashion year. normally i just shop around at the normal stores but actually have the taste similar to the high fashion magazines. i just recently found urban outfitters, its my dream store. everything i love, so i am going to shop, shop, shop! i know it will be worth it. right well i'm gonna go watch the food network.

scrambled egg
part one mythology
gym hunting
healthy lunch
texas roadhouse

food is one evil addiction. today i went to the movies - saw the ugly truth and loved it - and completely resisted the urge to eat movie food. which happens to be my one weakness. today i caught up on some old gossip girl episodes, i realize that i really miss that show. i got bored earlier in the year with it, what with chuck running around drunk twenty four/seven (nothing new, ik) but this was because of his fathers death. all my friends tonight went to musikfest. i wasn't invited. apparantly it was this huge affair, ya know, part of "senior bonding". but if i'm a senior... then why am i not bonding? honestly i'm thinking about starting a countdown of how many days i have left till i go to college. depressing, right? i'm gonna go wallow away in a sad movie, or maybe just some twilight, who knows.